A person I valued, trusted and liked, someone I thought of as close (notice the past tense) made a tiny, insidious, passing comment about a photo of me from some shenanigans last weekend.
Whats pivotal about this was she was wrong. So very blatantly wrong.
And in that one moment she opened up the great black cavern inside her and I could see very clearly that inside her was jealousy and negativity, insecurity and nastiness. Just a momentary glimpse is all it took.
She SHOULD be jealous of me, I am out there doing things, I am making progress, I am winning hearts and minds and I am making a difference. Guess what - I'm even having fun and making other gorgeous friends along the way. Meanwhile she's sitting on the lounge making herself sick with regrets and laziness and still - still - whinging about stuff that she won't bother changing. She is doing nothing appreciable at all. Not me.
Its not the first time this has happened to me, but boy was this an eye-opener. I had been trusting, valuing and appreciating this person who ( with the value of 20/20 hindsight) has been slowly undermining me.
I know why she does it, doesn't make it right.
Hope she finds her peace, it won't be at my expense any more x
